A BITTER TRUTH OF MY LIFE
First I have complain on my name, its "Prem". The one who cannot get love in life, oh no let me correct that; who gets love always but cannot make it last long forever and his name is Prem means Love in English. Like Laxmi (name of wealth goddess according to the holy books) and she is the poorest girl in the world and many more examples of this types of contrasts.
All depresed and all broken and this is not by others its all because of me and some wat my fate. In my life I just had a principle that I will never be a crap in front of other just my image will be so clear and transparent. I always tried to be an open image and u know its me. But that all went in vain I am trying fail all the time. I guess that the way I am following is wrong. What I am doing is totally wrong. They used to say to have common feelings our wavelength should match and the frequency, I think they are right.
Till now I cannot understand myself than why should I complain others that they do not understand me. Today I try to be a strong and a bold and next day I again make an excuse that it was not me doing that crap. Yes I don mean that way but it happens what can I do.
This is not the first time that my anger played a vital role in my life to create a crap like this but it happens sometimes and it happens BIG. I cannot act as a common social being and that's wat i called me as a failure. I know i dont deserve this world, i cannot fake anyone anymore.
Yes i know i am totally isolated and isolated@2. I have no complain for anyone for what's missing in my life and don wanna complain Mr. Prem Luitel too. Life is always taking from me but its rarely giving back. Life is not like a movie but we are influenced from that somehow. We try to follow the situation over there and make it a unsuccessful part of our freaking life and cry.
One day he will come and take me till than i wish to make myself a gud person. Yes but for now i know whatever the situation is and only me and my fate is responsible for that. No, they are not wrong just i am responsible for what the hell went out. I dont deserve though i try to deserve and that's my weak point. Till now my life is just giving a handsome pain to me and all the people around who are related to me. And i have no right for that i know. No complains for anything that went bad in my life coz they say what happens it happens for good. Let me see what miracle is my life doing after taking away my love?
All depresed and all broken and this is not by others its all because of me and some wat my fate. In my life I just had a principle that I will never be a crap in front of other just my image will be so clear and transparent. I always tried to be an open image and u know its me. But that all went in vain I am trying fail all the time. I guess that the way I am following is wrong. What I am doing is totally wrong. They used to say to have common feelings our wavelength should match and the frequency, I think they are right.
Till now I cannot understand myself than why should I complain others that they do not understand me. Today I try to be a strong and a bold and next day I again make an excuse that it was not me doing that crap. Yes I don mean that way but it happens what can I do.
This is not the first time that my anger played a vital role in my life to create a crap like this but it happens sometimes and it happens BIG. I cannot act as a common social being and that's wat i called me as a failure. I know i dont deserve this world, i cannot fake anyone anymore.
Yes i know i am totally isolated and isolated@2. I have no complain for anyone for what's missing in my life and don wanna complain Mr. Prem Luitel too. Life is always taking from me but its rarely giving back. Life is not like a movie but we are influenced from that somehow. We try to follow the situation over there and make it a unsuccessful part of our freaking life and cry.
One day he will come and take me till than i wish to make myself a gud person. Yes but for now i know whatever the situation is and only me and my fate is responsible for that. No, they are not wrong just i am responsible for what the hell went out. I dont deserve though i try to deserve and that's my weak point. Till now my life is just giving a handsome pain to me and all the people around who are related to me. And i have no right for that i know. No complains for anything that went bad in my life coz they say what happens it happens for good. Let me see what miracle is my life doing after taking away my love?
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