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All I wish is my temptation will work with aplomb but hereby all my dreams and plans is obscured under the poverty. A dream of going abroad for the higher education is fading to a dead-end. I know the economical condition of my family is miserable in present context but somehow I have to persist my study. I guess my parents don't have ampathy towards me that's how they are not willing to manage the fund in every possible way that they are supposed to try. Sometime it feels like I am an orphan, I have nobody up and down 

I couldn't continue my GRE class because I couldn't manage the fee then and now. Moving abroad for my higher education is again postponed under obligation. Neither my family nor a single helping hand seems to be waving for my help. Recently I am just a green engineer and just completing bachelor in engineering is not all in all in the universe in this age of competition. I want to carry on my study as far as I can take it. I want to study, I want to entrench my career and I want to be masterful in my profession but nary a door is open for my help. Usually in life when we make some stupid decision we have to live with it and I don't want to be the one to give up my study just because of lack of money.

We all need money but nobody else in this universe needs like the way I need it right these starving days. A bundle of cash and my entire life of living would be changed. I can see my bright future on the horizon but living up in the present has become a pain in my ass. I have run out of money many months ago and I can't even entreat my parents for help because my ethics deny me. I am grown up old enough and this won't be pertinent to beseech for MONEY at this age. I don't even have a penny to buy a D-Cold total let alone pocket money. I couldn't even make any of my important call which would link me up with the tycoon or the senior magnate or simply seniors who could probably be my path finder. I am bewildered by the fickle fate of mine. Whatever, all the circumstances are the consequences of my poverty and hinder to my success. 

I have been applying for jobs but may be I am a tyro (amateur) my resume fades in the deluge of highly experienced ones. It feels like I am in the middle of nowhere. Neither I can step backward and live up a pedestrian life; so far I am not a rotten engineer and nor a single auspicious signal on the horizon to step forward that help to reinforce my career. It seems like I am cursed with the brunt of poverty and I am pretty unknown what would it take to get rid of it.

Ironically, I have dream inside me, I have hope inside. I believe that hope is a good thing, may be best of thing and no good things ever dies. You often encounter problems throughout the life span but you can't let them stop you. I can bet my bottom dollar that one day the glory of god will come up with auspicious occasion especially for me. Until than wait and watch, watch and learn.